I just joined Calories Count Plus and the exact calories I have consumed is 652 (my goal is 500 calories per day...too bad)

Anyway, If I continue to eat about 500 calories a day, I have estimated that after this month, I would lose 24 lbs,

1 pound is 3500 calories

If I eat 500 calories a day, I can lose a pound in about 2 days...

If I continue to do this in 2 months, I can lose about 48lbs, which I would love to lose...

I just hope I can continue with this, I'm soo excited to be thin!

Today is a Thursday, and I have become absent again at school for number one, I still feel weak due to fever and two, I feel lazy...

Even so, It is only 2:00 pm here and here is the list of food that I have currently devoured:


One piece Fried Chicken (approx 250 cal)

4 Piece mini corndogs (apprx 50 cal each, 200 cal total)

Milk Tea- vanilla flavored, (approx 100 cal)

Calories Total: 550 (damn...50 calories extra T_T)

Current Weight: 140 lbs



It is my first day of doing this diet thing again and so far, I feel sorta happy because I was able to avoid eating rice... I just hope I would control myself enough to avoid eating dinner later...

Anyway, I feel so apathetic today... I don't feel any emotion whatsoever... Is this because of my sickness or have I given up on life already? I feel soo hopeless (though I cannot feel anything, I just force myself to)... I need a shrink... Whatever shall I do?!?!

I have finally decided...


I AM GOING TO LOSE WEIGHT

I know it, I just do...

I had done this once, years ago... I weighed as much as I
weigh now, 140lbs, but after a month of eating completely
nothing but 500 calories a day (That was last April of 2006,
btw) But unfortunately, I got my fat back...

At first I didn't care that much...

I was happy, I had friends, my class was great and it seemed
like everyone appreciated my talents... It was only now that
I came to notice how stupid I was, being all satisfied with
my so-called 'life'... My friends, they were mostly thin and
beautiful, they were even smarter than me... I can't help
but become jealous... But even so, seeing a fat, jealous kid
is a funny sight... Which makes me think about how funny
people see us fat people even if we aren't even doing
anything... I feel nothing, yet I want to force myself to be
sad... Am I apathetic?? That I do not know...

My goal this February 2008:

1. Lose 30 lbs and weigh 110 lbs

2. Make my old pants fit me again

3. Become 2nd honor, even though I'm pretty sure it's
impossible...

How I will lose weight:

1. I shall only eat once a day (brunch) and it should be no
less than 500 calories...

2. I shall count my calories...

3. I should not spend money for food but instead use it to
buy more books...

4. Do 100 sit ups everyday starting today (Jan 31st 2008)

5. Bike at weekends (if I have the time)

6. Eat slower

7. Be more Godly and pray more

8. Be more angry at self in order for weight loss motivation

9. Find an inspiration and or crush

10. Feel miserable about fatness

I should remember though, to never tell anyone about this
for they might interfere with my weight-lose plan... I
should make this secret and not tell anyone... I should not
make it obvious...

I hope I lose all this weight in one month, like before...
And not be fat again and gain more weight after like what
has happened...